Thursday, July 29, 2004
i was sleeping when my mom took de cane and whipped me and my younger sis up... said what?
asked us who stole my dad's money... again... sigh... i was so tired... den i knew it was my sis la... but she dun wanna confess... bloody idiot... hate her... oh... then i when i stared at my sis... guess wad my mom said? " dun need to stare lah... you know it's who can already... she's tryin to say it's me la... why? cuz her darling precious daughter won't steal... only i would steal la... bloody asses... next time i see her stealing... i'll give one tight slap... hope it leaves a red mark... den if my mom ask why got mark.... i'll say," oh, i slapped her when she's stealing dad's money..." den i have evidence.. hmph... fucking people... den that night i cried myself to sleep... ya sure... de whole family only i will steal la... though my family very poor... i'll never resort to stealing loh... especially my own father's money... fuck... these few days always go library during recess to save money... still shout so much... crap la... even if i have to go hungry i will loh... just to save money... why? cyz we are so poor i have to save money to buy wadever i wan... those people out there think i like always so happy-go-lucky one... crap... dat night i heard my mom talk about de bills... my father... after deducting de bills... we have less den 1000 per month for 6 people loh... *sigh* even during chinese new year... whole family gambling like hell... why? cuz it's a form of income... how much we won.. we gave most to our parents to use... see.. we so poor... and being poor gives you more other problems... crap... i hate my life... even when it's not chinese new year... we also gamble... whole family love gambling... got money to earn mah... u thot my life so perfect issit? well... it's not... chinese new year all de ang-pows also give to my parents... to use la... if not whole family starve ah? whole family love money like hell also.. dats why i always say wanna get famous... cuz when i famous den can get lots of money... *sigh* it's so not fair... other ppl get $5 for a day allowance... me too... but i include lunch... and everything else i wanna buy... there's once where my ez-link card doesn't have anymore cash... i dun dare to tell my mom.. we already poor enough... i have to skip my recess just to top up my card... ppl like xin yan.... what she spent in a month is half of my dad's salary loh... crap... i just hate being poor...
-elLeeN-
me_________`e-leen *
9:28 PM
